After The Morning After (Kensley)

Why is my room spinning? And my head is killing me. How I let Kaleigh and McKenzie talk me into consuming that alcohol is beyond me. I haven't drug that hard since, let's just say it has been a long time. I don't even go out to clubs so I never even think of drinking, but after that argument with Eric I had to get away for a while. I know he is probably pissed with me for getting so drunk. I don't just represent myself out in the streets, I am his wife and I should keep myself presentable at all times. I may have to make it up to him and give him at least five minutes of afection. I'm sure he would love that.

"Good morning baby." Eric says as he plants a kiss on my forehead. I didn't even realize that he was awake.

"Good morning. Did I wake you by moving?"

"No I really haven't been able to sleep much, you were in rare form last night. I was so excited I couldn't sleep. I'm so glad that our little conversation got you to loosen up."

"What are you talking about Eric, rare form? I don't know what you mean, I know that I was drunk and I apologize if I said anything out of the way to you."

"It's not what you said baby, it's what you did. You were all over me. I couldn't keep your hands off me. You were kissing, pulling, and tugging on every spot of my body."

"What?!!!???" I shot straight up in the bed and the sheet fell from my chest revealing two exposed nipples. I tried to grab the cover but Eric pulled it from my grasp.

"I don't think so. After last night you and I became a whole lot closer. I felt the connection that I have been looking for since the day I met you. You don't have to cover up for me babies or no babies you are sexy as hell to me."

"I already know that I am sexy Eric, I don't want to cover up because I am insecure. I want to cover up because I am a lady damn-it."

"Jesus Kensley how could you ruin a moment like last night by acting like a stuck up bitch in the morning."

"Did you just call me a bitch Eric?"

"No I said you are acting like one, not that you are one. I'm just really frustrated and I want to be able to make love to my wife how I want to and not feel guilty about it."

"Make love or rape Eric? Because if I was intoxicated it sounds like you took advantage of me."

"Rape? I can't believe you have the nerve to speak that word out of your mouth and against me. "

Eric grabbed my arm and rolled me close to him so that we were eye to eye.

"Don't you ever in your gotdamn life say that I would rape you? I wouldn't call making love to my wife, who came on to me might I add, considered rape. Why don't you get it through your silly ass head that I love you and I want you to love me back."

As usual he had fire brewing beneath his eyes, and I could have simply put it out by opening up.

"Eric if you don't let go of my damn arm so I can get up and make breakfast for my kids, I will call the police on you."

"Don't worry Kensley our maid, you know the kids "real mother" already made breakfast and took them to school. As far as your arm goes, you can have it back because I am done. I mean it, I will be moving my things to the guest room. I can't take this anymore."

As he said the words sadly I felt some relief. I just don't want to deal with him right now. Man do I need another drink really bad.

Kensley

I have no clue where that fast tail sister of mine is. I called her all night long at home and on her cell. Normally I wouldn't even bother trying to get into her business, but I know that when she has something stupid on the brain I am the only one who can save her. McKenzie was M.I.A as well so no doubt she knows everything that is going on. Kayleigh can't move unless she has Kenzie by her side. I could barely make love to Eric last night because she kept popping in my brain. He could tell that I was barely there so he ended it quickly. Which only opened up the conversation for my "stiffness" as he calls it. I know I know, I am his wife, it is my duty, and all that other great stuff. However, I can live without it. I've tried but I can't find any good in sex. We already have our boy and girl so I don't see the purpose of carrying on the charade of sex any further. Of course Eric sees it a different way but he'll get over it, he always does.

"You know I love you Kensley but I don't see how I can go on like this."

Eric's deep voice walking into the bathroom scared me in the shower almost causing me to fall.

"Eric what are you doing in here? I'm naked for God's sake."

"Try being naked for my sake Kensley. What is the world coming to when a man can't see his wife naked. I love you and I want to be here for you. But this lack of intimacy is killing me, I thought that once we were married you would open up more. After the kids I knew that you were in it for the long haul, but why won't you open up to me. Why am I paying for another man's mistakes?"

It was obvious that he wasn't leaving the bathroom so I grabbed the nearest towel and covered up.

"I'm loosing my mind and you don't even care. The scheduled twice a week sex sessions, the way you go into a far away land during, and how I can't even explore different ways with you. When was the last time you told your kids that you loved them. Hell when was the last time you told me?"

"I don't want to discuss this Eric I don't know what you are talking about. I do know how to love. I love Kaleigh, I love the kids, and I love you."

"Last, you love me last Kensley. Your sister is a grown woman now, but we are your family now. You should love us first and foremost."

"Don't bring my sister up she has nothing to do with this. She's a kid that I don't want to make the same mistakes as I."

"She's almost thirty damn-it, she is grown. Be concerned about your own kids like that. Worry about how long this marriage will last. Let me in please, I am begging you for the sake of us, to just let me in."

He jumped in the shower fully clothed holding me in the tightest embrace. I could feel his hands rubbing the small of my back, before I knew it he was pushing my towel over my hips. I love Eric and I need his love but men are all the same and I can't take that pain again. I just can't.

"Eric please just leave I have to get dressed and go find Kaleigh." I grabbed the face towel and began to apply soap, anything so I didn't have to look in his eyes.

"You're making the biggest mistake ever Kensley, I don't want to prove your theory right, but I am this close to walking out that door and never coming back."

That got my attention and we stared at each other and I could tell that he was waiting on my response. I wanted to ask him to be patient and please don't leave. I didn't know how to say it. No other words were spoken as he stepped out and walked away defeated.