Round and Round We Go

“Hey girl what’s up” I walk casually into the Filter Bar and have a seat across from McKenzie

“Don’t you hey girl me, you stanking hussy. Where the hell have you been?” Ok so I get it McKenzie is pissed with me. What else is new in my life

“ You know, over here over there, just trying to do me.”

“I swear I will take every little piece of fake hair off your head if you don’t speak up.”

“Ok, Ok. Sha and I are back together and he surprised me with a trip to New York, so we just been chilling. You know how it is.”

“ I don’t know how it is, have you heard of a little device called a telephone.”

“He decided no phones, no tv, and no computers. Just he and I getting that old thing back.”

“So let me get this straight, you had me clown with you on this fool in the club and now you sitting here singing his praises.”

I didn’t know what to say so I just looked down. I don’t want to feel like a fool and I thought Kenzie would understand better than anyone.

“I know that’s right girl get yo man back, you know I was just pulling your card. I would have done the same thing.” A smile as wide as the Mississippi was on her face and I knew that she was just playing.

“Thank you girl I love that man so much and you wouldn’t believe the way he makes me feel. You know a nicca is bad to the bone when they can touch your soul from a kiss.”

“Tell me about it. I saw Danger while you were gone”

My fabulous pomegranate margarita flew out my mouth and nose simultaneously. The news that McKenzie hit me with was enough to send me to the pearly gates of Heaven.

“Did you say Danger, as in Danger you been with since 14, got you pregnant, helped you do your own homemade abortion, had you selling drugs for him, you caught a case for, use to cheat on you, fine ass Danger.”

“Thanks for the history lesson, but yeah that would be him”

“Kenzie what are you doing, it took you a long time to get your life back right after him. Why in the hell would you go see him and when did he get out of the Feds.”

“He got out 4 months ago and we hooked up the first day he got out. I need to be able to shake him but it’s just something about him.”

“Well I hope it is worth your husband and your daughter. I tell you penis will make a woman do some strange things. Barkeep I need another Margarita and this time make it double.”


"Girl you don't know the half of it, he got me wanting to run away with him."


"I know you are grown Kenzie, and it's your life, but I am trying to tell you what I know. And I know that nothing good will come from this."

Here We Go Again

I feel like such a dummy. I haven't cried myself to sleep since I was in high school. Sha was everything I wanted in a man but he was making me become everything that I hate in a woman. But I love him so much. It's been five days since I walked out his door. Truthfully I thought that he was going to put up a big fuss begging me to take him back but he only called twice to check on me. So much for begging I guess. Damn him, I don't need his ass anyway. All I need is my bottle of Patron' and Nina Simone's heavy cries to forget all about his ass.

Getting out of bed was harder than I thought it would be, my head hurts so bad. From the looks of this room I must have had one hell of a temper tantrum. Yeah I can piece parts of last night and I remember seeing pictures of me and Sha at Forest Park last year for the balloon race. Just like kids we would make it out there every year and see all the hot air balloons take off. Those pictures of us smiling and being so in love through me into a frenzy I hurled one into the fire and next thing you know I was having my own Waiting To Exhale party burning everything that reminded me off him. I was so drunk and so pissed off that I dreamed about him. Ha! I can't even escape the man in my dreams. He was talking to me about the importance of being a lady and how ladies never drink more than they can handle. Blah Blah Blah who gives a damn about him and that stupid dream. He never liked for me to drink unless it included us getting freaky afterwards. But did I already say damn him!!! If not, damn him and his prudish ass ways. If I wanna drink this lady is gonna take a drink.

"Head hurt don't it?"

The voice startled the shit out of me causing me to stump my baby toe on the dresser.

"Got Damn-it Rashad what are you doing in here?"

"Saving you from yourself obviously. Have you ever heard the saying A Drunk Aint Shit? After you called me screaming and crying last night I knew you were drunk and I came over because I was concerned. Good thing I did to because you would have died from smoke inhalation. Next time you want to burn my shit you may wanna open a window. Now get your ass up so I can put you in the tub while I clean this place up."

"Sha I can't move my stomach is killing me. You can just leave out the front door, I don't need your pity. Let me just sleep this off like I said you can just leave"

Sha walked around the bed and flung me over his shoulders. He kicked the bathroom door open and to my surprise he had already run the water. He undressed me with one hand and then placed my drunken body into the tub. He looked at me as if he was peering through my soul. I was to weak to move so he took the sponge and began bathing me. Did I mention that I really really love him.

Please Don't Go (Kaleigh)

" Look I can't take this junk you're pulling Kaleigh. I try to show you that I am a good man and I know that I have been busy lately but I just need you to hold on until I secure my spot with the city council. You may have ruined my chance tonight."

"How was I suppose to know Rashand that she was working on your political team. You told me that you weren't feeling well and you would be staying in the house tonight."

"That's because I knew how you would react if you thought that I was out with her doing more than campaign work. You driving me nuts with this, you have to stop this jealousy thing."

"I'm not hardly jealous. I know you been busy but have you seen me Sha? I can have any man I want why would I be jealous. If anything you should be jealous at all the men who have been checking for me lately."

"Why you here with me then Kaleigh? You say you can have all the men you want, yet you keep coming back to daddy for what?"

Sha was good he knew that sexy talk of his would get me to let my beef go, but I wasn't giving in that easily. No way.

"Why I keep coming back to daddy? That's a good question because lately I can't find an answer."

"Let me show you what the answer is."

With a swift movement he had grabbed me around the waist and pulled me close to him. I thought he was going to suffocate me he was holding so tight.

"This what you keep coming for aint it?" Sha kept asking me while planting kisses all over my neck and chest.

"Yea that's what you keep coming back for, because I know how to treat my cat right. Tell me that's what it is. How I make it wet, make it purr for me. Let me kiss her and tell her that I miss her."

I didn't say anything as I pulled my skirt up around my waist and slid my thongs down. Sha wasted no time getting reacquainted with her. It had been so long that I found myself shivering in less than two minutes.

"See that's why you keep coming back, who you know make you feel like this? I wanna feel her for real now."

Sha got behind me and the first thrust we both could tell that it had been way to long. He had a little tugging and pushing to do, but once he got in he quickly got his groove. I can't lie it was the best feeling ever. Either I seriously have that good good or Sha too had been deprived of some good love. After 10 pumps, 21 strokes, and five minutes he pushed all his weight on top of me and just laid for a few minutes. I tried to hold it back but I could feel the tears coming.

"Kaleigh, why you shaking what's wrong? Why are you crying? Please don't do that"

"I can't do this anymore Sha I love you so much but you are the one making me nuts. I'm insecure and so needy now. That's just not me. I want this relationship but I want my sanity first and foremost. I have to go."

"Go? You mean just home right and you will see me tomorrow?"

"Forever Sha, I can't take this anymore."

Girls Night Out (Kaleigh)

"You know Kensley you should try coming out with us more often, you should really loosen up. I know you are married and all with kids but you still look good for 34."

"Thanks for your validation Kaleigh but I really don't need it, do you really think I would look this fabulous and not know it."

The laughter around the table plus the drink and music was making me feel good. After my disastrous stake out in front of Sha's house I needed a relief and this was a very pleasant one.

"By the way where were you two sluts the other night? I kept calling and neither of you would answer."

"Oh let's not go there big cuz." McKenzie slurred her words with the help of her four Margaritas. "Your sister here wanted to play Cagney and Lacey so we were on a top secret mission to find out nothing."

I could see that tonight will be a "lets make fun of Kaleigh moment". I wasn't in the mood and I would go off easily. After leaving Sha's house yesterday morning I felt like a complete fool. He had caught me sleeping outside his home. To make matters worse I feel asleep so I didn't see who left with him that morning. That was a seriously wack mission.

"Nothing? What did you guys do in this so called investigation? And seriously Kaleigh why would you stoop so low that you would go on a "top secret mission".

Kensley's nose was in the air where it stayed the most. She had a way of looking down on you and making you feel super small.

"We didn't do anything, we were just waiting to see if anyone would show up or leave, an hour turned into two and we feel asleep."

"FEEL ASLEEP IN THE CAR? ON EUCLID? ARE YOU CRAZY KALEIGH"

"First Kensley could you please lower your voice you have the whole bar looking at us, secondly yeah I did it so what. Some of us don't have sexy ass husbands who are faithful like you so I was just checking to make sure Sha wasn't cheating on me."

"Girl you are wrong for that. As a lady you should never stoop so low that you are acting like a project pigeon. Sitting outside his house? Falling asleep? Let me guess you put here up to this McKenzie?"

"Ay Kensley I don't have shit to do with the decisions your sister make, now we are having a good night damn-it. I'm not about to let your snobby ass ways mess up my vibe. Kaleigh is grown and she needed someone to be there for her not judge her, so she called me. And you damn right I'm gone ride with her and I don't care how stupid the mission is"

McKenzie didn't say anything else to Kensley as she continued to sip her Margarita and look around the bar. Even though Kenzie was our first cousin and was pretty much raised in our home, her and Kensley always had some beef going on. They were closer in age than me and McKenzie, but she and I have always clicked. And she is right she never judges the way that Kensley will.

"I see, well I guess I have been put in my place. I'll let the mission and your little comments McKenzie slide. I came here to drink and unwind and that is what I plan on doing. So if you ladies will excuse me I am going to the dance floor."

Kensley got up from the table as the waitress was walking up to bring us our fifth round of Margaritas. Kenzie grabbed hers immediately and started drinking like it would soon evaporate. I could see Kensely out the corner of my eye and now doubt the Patron in the Margaritas had her feeling herself. I didn't even know that she knew how to dance let alone grind in the manner that she was carrying herself in.

"Oh My God Kenzie look at Kensley girl she is letting that man rub all on her ass and hips. I have to go and get her she is drunker than what I thought."

"Girl let the girl go and live life, I say to hell with it. That young dude is sexy as hell and in my opinion just what she needs to loosen her stiff as up."

"She's married and there are to many media outlets in here who could report about this in their paper or on the Internet. I have to go and stop -"

The sight before me made me pause mid sentence. Just two tables behind me sat Sha and a very attractive young lady. I've never seen her before so this one had to be new. I don't give a damn who she is if she thinks she is going to take my man she is sadly mistaken.

"Come on Kenzie we have some ass to kick."

Kaleigh

"How do I get myself in these situations?" I kept asking myself that over and over again. Truthfully though, I knew the answer. My Grandma always use to say to me "Girl one day that nose of yours is going to get in some business it can't get out of". Naturally like every child I blocked that out of my head and went and got into someone else business. Now here I am 14 years later at 27 sitting in front of my "boyfriend's" house trying to see if he has company. The fact that I have to stoop to this level should be reason enough to leave him alone, but I can't. To say he is my drug of choice is an understatement. Rashand, or Sha as they call him in the streets, and I have been together for four years. We started off with a bang, a love at first sight thing, now things have started to fizzle. I've been nothing but good to him so I would like to know exactly why he hasn't put a ring on it. I can only assume it's some skeezer. The ratio of good men in this city is low, so I know all the vultures have been after him. I always felt secure in our relationship up until recently. So in a round about way that is why I am sitting here on Euclid at two o'clock in the morning dressed in cliche' all black. If my sister could see me now she would have a hissy fit. No way in hell is a daughter of Judge Lancaster hitting rock bottom like this. That's why I brought along our cousin McKenzie, she's a ride or die kind of girl.

"McKenzie, McKenzie wake up."

"What Kaleigh? Damn it's bad enough you've had me out here for the past two hours, can I at least get a five minute nap"

"Trick you been sleep for 30 minutes and I'm getting bored. I know someone is in there and I can't wait to see their faces when I bust them."

"You know you really live in a delusional world Kaleigh. What has Sha done to make you think he is cheating"

"I'm not stupid Kenzie. We barely spend time together, our sex life is almost extinct, and he's always gone from home."

"You know you my cousin and I love you to death but the man has been working. It's hard when your just trying to get your foot in the door as a politician, he does a lot of campaigning. You knew his goals when you first started in college."

"And whose side are you on exactly skank."

"You know I'm all for you but at this moment I would like to be on MY right side going to sleep."

" I know you better be on point when it's time to jump out, I can't be out here acting all ghetto by myself. If the family ever find out I will never hear the end of it. They expect this kind of stuff from you."

"Yeah yeah wake me when it pops off."

The time was dragging on and on. My eyes felt like weights were tied to my lashes. If he would just answer my call and let me know that he was at home I could pull off. With his car on the street and the house dark I can only assume one thing. There is most definitely a chick in there. Oooohhh if I could just get, get my hands on them. God am I sleepy but I swear it will take the heavens to part before I pull off. That's right I am going to sit here until my questions are answered.

When I opened my eyes I could see that four hours had past it was 6:30 in the morning. I sprang up wiping the slob off my face. McKenzie was next to me snoring lightly. It then hit me that I was still on Sha's street and I had fallen asleep. His car was gone which meant he had already left for the day. It was then I saw it, a note with my name spread across in his handwriting on my window.

"I started to wake you but you were sleep so peacefully, I left my key under the mat for you to freshen up and get something to eat. Call when you get up with your psycho ass. Love you."

I feel like a complete ass!